Before the article came out I was terrified. Inteco is not stable. It is not where I would want it to be ideally before I start screaming to the beat of Beyonce’s I was here. There were many things I need to get done first. I was not ready. So why did I do it? I was tired of fear.
I have been fearful that someone would come and steal the idea. They might do it better than me. I might be out before I even began. I did not have a hefty bank balance that I could retaliate when the need arose. So much could go wrong if I just spoke about it, so I kept quite. This wonderful life changing idea was all in my head for a really long time. I went as far as to not seek guidance to keep the number of people who knew about it small.
The change came when I was constantly having melt downs. There were frustrations and challenges that I was forcing myself to solve when I did not have the capacity to do it. I was constantly in a cycle of doubt, depression and rejuvenation. Although the time I spent at the rejuvenation stage was shorter each time. I wallowed in depression and doubt. Only two people saw this. I kept the world at bay. I reached a point I started craving interaction with others. I wanted to hear their views of the project. That was my turning point.
I seeked advice. I craved knowledge. I enrolled in on-line classes. Anything to broaden my capacity. I was a hindrance to my business because, I was acting like I was all it needed to succeed.
The article is an illustration of just how far I have come as a person. I have shouted to the world that Inteco is here without having answers to questions. Nothing is perfect. There are many balls in the air and I am not worried. If Inteco fails then it was worth every thing. If I did nothing else I have brought the idea to the Kenyan market that sanitary pad dispensers is an option to distribute sanitary pads. I am ok with that.
Until next time,