Currently listening to this because I hardly listen to music and I have no music playlist to call my own. Please help.
I have never had a month like March. March has been a roller coaster ride for all the good and bad reasons. I cannot remember who I was at the beginning of the month. It seems as if it was three years ago.The verdict is still out on who I am currently. I have changed my outlook, my views, my approach on life everything except for my love of yellow. That is still very much Intact.
Feeling overwhelmed if I can be honest. I can admit I am not the best at dealing with stress or anxiety. I either shut down and burst later on or I overthink until I cannot sleep and eventually fall ill. I am not complaining I would be a fool if I did. What has happened in this month alone I believe is the foundation of who I want to be. For the first time I am experiencing “adulting” and the transition is a painful one.
I am questioning my beliefs, my value systems, my brand as an individual and if I should stop my obsession with ketchup. I am at the point where I now look at my life with wiser glasses. The revaluation process is unnerving. I feel like I am balancing on logs floating on a river. The question who am I? and who do I want to be ? and most importantly what do I want to be remembered for have been on repeat on my mind.
I maybe bottling emotions and I am not succeeding. Today I hysterically cried because I could not find my phone. I was really focused at just keeping my head down and getting things done. I now know I need an outlet even if it is a few tears in the shower. Big girls cry and that is ok.
More than ever I am loving been a woman. I have never identified myself with my gender. ( I will discuss all this in a later post) but, this month I have LOVED been a woman.
I have learned and learned. Learning is the only way to broaden perspective. There is nothing more dangerous than ignorance.
I am excited to be travelling to a land I have not been before… ( I shall tell you more on that a little later on)
Finally, I have no idea where life will take me and what my journey has in store for me. I cannot even pretend to formulate a plan because:
God sees you make plans and laughs
Until next time,