Today, today was an emotionally interesting day.
There is a lot of pressure for 2016 to be MY year. I have been out of university for about a year and something. There is pressure to get into the “system”. I do not think the pressure is external actually I am putting pressure on myself. Everyday I have not achieved something big is a day wasted. I felt that I was taking long to actualize my dreams. Inteco was taking long to be understood by the market. I was not getting employed.
This whole paradigm made me doubt myself. Since I joined university I was working towards self-employment. The courses I took were chosen on purpose to supplement what I was trying to do outside. I gained a lot of business development experience. I am still learning. However, when Inteco was not received in a way I was expecting it shook me. I constantly say if I had known what I was getting into I would not have started. The journey broke my positive outlook because NOTHING ever went according to plan.
I would not say I am a half-empty glass kind of person either. I am more of a glass does not exist. I stopped expecting. That way I would not get disappointed. Without realizing I was allowing external elements dictate my outlook on life.
I am trying to change. However, change is incremental. Today, I decided to do something regardless of the current situation. I said this is my contribution to the situation however it will play out is not in my control and I am ok with it.
It is an active decision I have made to live in positivity. Regardless of the outcome there is a reason for it. There is a lesson I need to learn from the result and that is what matters.
Until next time