I had fallen out of love with Inteco.
Even now it is still difficult to admit that. I did not have passion for what I was doing anymore.Before my to my father post I had posted thrice in about 4 months eventually I pulled the posts down. I was pushing something that I was not really committed to. As a result I produced work that was not a reflection of what the business was about.
I was emotionally shut off from all things related to business. As a result we simply just existed, just floating on by.I had a very very bad melt down. I did not cry or get angry I just switched off the lights and walked off. Nothing was going right and I was just wondering when does this get easier?
I decided to share the dark side of my journey with you because, I realized we are harboring our own demons. Now that I am free from my own self-inflicted negativity, I appreciate the mind of an entrepreneur. I did not know thus, I did not prepare adequately for the emotional turmoil that this journey would have on me. I was always resilient when starting Inteco. There were times the odds were highly stacked against me but, I never swayed. Those were external forces. I was not prepared to face internal forces that would wreak havoc and eventually make me give up.
I had this piece pre-written at the time of revelation when my attitude changed. However, I have ended up editing it until it has no similarities to the original. This is due to something I recently read that further changed my perception of life and this series. Failure is never a crime. It is certain we will fail in everything we do. It is not guaranteed we will rise. Those who do become great.
I also share this for selfish reasons. For so long I shut the world off thinking I could handle it on my own. I now realize strength is realizing you need assistance. I am letting go of all my fears and reservations concerning Inteco. I have accepted that I cannot be in control of everything. I should not feel any less of a human for that.
My attitude almost made me fail and not get up.
Until next time.
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